ON THE MEND

Photo taken by yours truly @Medina, Saudi Arabia - March 2019 He will make a way out for you when you least expect it. A way out of your hurt, your pain, your difficult. Whatever it may be, He has control over all things. Remember Him and He will remember you Ya Allah, there will be better days, I know there will. You've promised it. And I see it in your creation. I see it in the beautiful flowers that bloom when everything was once brown. I see it in the tide when it rises and falls. I see it after the storm and the rain ceases and calm. I see it all around me without even needing to ask. Sometimes it is so difficult to imagine and see any good around but when I take a moment to reflect, to allow my emotions to calm and to think of You, there is nothing but hope.  There is nothing but happiness and joy knowing that You are in full control. There is nothing but comfort knowing that when everything seems destined for failure that You are the one that has written my de

Photo taken by yours truly @Berlin, Germany - March 2019  Today, I sat in my hotel room with an empty screen in front of me for a couple of minutes; I just sat there and stared. The circumstances in my life had become overwhelming, everything was crumbling, and my world was falling apart. The pain was cutting so deeply within me that I did not know how to react. I was so numb and yet hurting at the same time. It's like my heart just becomes fed up of having to deal with the same kind of hurt over and over again, that it puts it at a stop for me. Maybe this pain keeps me grounded to Allah. Maybe it's Allah's blessing upon me that I hurt to the point I have no point left but to seek His support and love. Not going to lie, I've been an ignorant person in the past. The pain humbles me. I've been aggressive, dismissive, sometimes rude and on the path of sin. This pain put an end to it all. Now that I hurt so much, I have no energy left in me to be disrespectful to