April (2018) Fooled!
Photo taken during my trip to Pergasingan Hill, Lombok, Indonesia - April 2017 #flashback to the month I realised I have been fooled (and being used). It felt like a tsunami. I was on high alert. My environment looked different. I couldn't get my bearings. My heart beats faster, I'm wide awake and aware but I'm not thinking. It's like the moment before a dam bursts. Then the energy rushes out, along with an outpouring of thoughts. Everything in my life seemed torn apart. I tried to understand what have happened, but everything seemed different and I couldn't distinguish what was the truth and what was my imagination. My normal, predictable life (which I absolutely loved, by the way) have been virtually shattered overnight. Not only did it culminate in a very bitter war, it also marked the onset of a toxic poison that had begun to work into my veins: resentment. The hurt goes deep. What makes the pain worse is that I was wrong. I did not have it coming. Y...